Super Serious Thread

[Vinyl Scratch]

You looked at the title and thought this was a shitpost didn't you?

Nah though. I'm serious, this is more like a general thread where you can vent about the serious things that have been affecting you in life, but they aren't worth an actual full-blown thread. That's what this thread is for. Maybe it gave you a mood swing and now you feel upset. Who knows.

Please note though; since this is my thread I just want to establish 1 rule:
Please make sure that what you're talking about actually affects you heavily in a positive/negative way. Don't come to this thread saying you dropped your iPhone and cried for 10 minutes. While you can't get in trouble for this, it's looked down upon, so don't be a faggot and post that shit and get shocked that people are disliking you for it.

[aero]

I'll take the bait.

I feel like I'm near a dead-end in life with no where to go, and no money, because I can't stand my home situation and have no drive (or finances) to pursue college or move to Texas for a job/with other family. I have everything planned out to live a stable life (know how to manage my money but I have no money), but my biggest obstacle preventing me from moving on is my social anxiety that I let get the best of me. Can't drive yet at 17 cause I'm scared to death of fucking up (which you shouldn't get behind the wheel while feeling that way), which means I can't get to an interview or work, which would be a whole other battle for me. Whenever I think about school I have panic attacks despite being an A-B student, and when I have to answer calls from school they're worse. The only reason I don't run off is because I have nowhere to go, and I can't put that stress on my family. I did swear though that I wouldn't be moving into another house with a particular "family" member, and I've started to here a bit of move talk so time is running out for me. I do have positives though like a loving boyfriend, but only when the power + internet is up :|. Hope this was what you were looking for and I didn't say all this for nothing.

TL;DR Nowhere to go, and couldn't go anyway.

[Panda]

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I know how you feel and I would say my situation isn't much different to yours because I also have diagnosed social anxiety which my doctors never prescribed me medication for, and of course social anxiety is also followed by depression and generalised anxiety which is pretty bad so prozac would be pretty nice. I think you should definitely see a doctor and take some sort of anti-anxiety drug like beta blockers (they stop your heart rate from bouncing all over the place) or stronger anti-anxiety drugs — for example, valium or prozac. It's not nice to deal with it on your own, but the lack of money forced my hand so I had to search for a job (I currently have £3.79 to my name). Today I got confirmation that I was successful in getting a job at the Screwfix call centre where I'll be making £7.14 an hour to do customer service on the phone. While this is super unappealing because of my anxiety, it gives me comfort knowing I'll be bringing home like £350 a month, maybe more with overtime.

I think you should definitely at least check indeed.com or monster.com for job listings in your area. Even weekend work for 10 hours a week could get you at least some money. You just have to keep checking for jobs you think you can do. McDonalds and other places that get a lunchtime rush were out of question for me so I'd expect you not to do those either. There are lots of jobs that don't really require you to do a lot of talking (eg warehouse assistant or cleaning hotel rooms). Even just working in retail folding clothes will bring in at least some money.
Although maybe you should only do this when you have your anxiety slightly under control. Make sure you have a CV or resumé (or whatever they're called) made, though.
Also, get prepared to get turned down. A LOT. It really hurt my confidence but you just have to keep going. I applied for 19 jobs and got 2 interviews.

On the topic of relationships, long distance ones suck and I hate only seeing Martin once a year. Last year I saw him for 7 hours after traveling 3 hours to London, and this year for 16 days after flying alone to Sweden after a 3 hour journey and 2 hour wait at the airport. It upsets me because if we're going to stay together then there's no knowing when we'll actually see each other more often. Today is our anniversary and I can't see him and it sucks ass.
What can u do lol

[aero]

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Thanks for your response! Nice to hear hear you got a job today, and also happy anniversary to you and Martin.

I've been trying to deal with it alone through natural means and w/o meds, but I don't think seeing a doctor would be feasible despite having a job since insurance likely wouldn't help. I'll look into it though to see if I can maybe find someone to talk to. As I said in my post though, money is tight and stuff isn't free yet this seems to be the more manageable thing for me. Eric helps a huge amount already by just being around to listen to this so it all doesn't bottle up like it has been, so I'm not completely alone with this though.

And it does sound like hell to meet up with Martin but just be thankful you don't have the entire Atlantic ocean between you two, where it becomes an inside joke on how far away you guys are lol. Hoping you guys are happy and will last despite the distance!

[Marina]

And it does sound like hell to meet up with Martin but just be thankful you don't have the entire Atlantic ocean between you two, where it becomes an inside joke on how far away you guys are lol.

*furiously tries to convince my mother to let me go on vacation alone in florida*

[mechamind]

I'll take the bait.

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TL;DR Nowhere to go, and couldn't go anyway.

Where the majority of jobs are nowadays, it seems one wouldn't want to drive anyway.

As long as you don't have to make the decision in living somewhere that you find work or education, but not both. Unfortunately, it seems to be like that all around British Columbia, and I for one am sick of it. Where the education does exist, the only work you could easily find is in the service or tourism economy. Where other types of jobs do exist, the only real post-secondary education you can get is online.

Likely in part because of the dilemma, I have to move again, even though I had already done it in the beginning of December last year.

The strange thing is that you have to live in an area closer to the political right for the education, which is the opposite of what one would expect from a public education system.

[Vinyl Scratch]

Man, speaking of moving, we still don't have our own house to live in. We're just staying at my Uncle's right now. Hopefully we get a house by Sunday though. I need to go back to go back to my other places so I can be with my better communities. (Can't do it easily right now because my Uncle's place is basically a dead zone). My Mom's boyfriend is also possibly going crazy, as he's been seeing numbers and letters on a bunch of random shit, like our clothes, napkins, my Mom's skin.. Just the other day he thought my Mom was cheating on him with other guys as he apparently saw messages on her phone, but the thing is that all of our phones have been turned off lately except for mine. After that though he tried to burn all of her work clothes in a barbeque pit by pouring gasoline on them. My Mom told me I should record it so I did. After a while though he probably realized how illegal that was and began to wash all of them off with the water outside.

[aero]

The strange thing is that you have to live in an area closer to the political right for the education, which is the opposite of what one would expect from a public education system.

Why is that the opposite of what one would expect? Texas is as right as they come and seems to be doing fine with economic growth, not sure about education though. One of the reasons why I would want to move out there is to get involved with these private space companies moving out there. Idk about the rocket science, but I'd be willing to go through with my economics interest and apply to help manage their accounting and finances.

Man, speaking of moving, we still don't have our own house to live in. We're just staying at my Uncle's right now. Hopefully we get a house by Sunday though. I need to go back to go back to my other places so I can be with my better communities. (Can't do it easily right now because my Uncle's place is basically a dead zone). My Mom's boyfriend is also possibly going crazy, as he's been seeing numbers and letters on a bunch of random shit, like our clothes, napkins, my Mom's skin.. Just the other day he thought my Mom was cheating on him with other guys as he apparently saw messages on her phone, but the thing is that all of our phones have been turned off lately except for mine. After that though he tried to burn all of her work clothes in a barbeque pit by pouring gasoline on them. My Mom told me I should record it so I did. After a while though he probably realized how illegal that was and began to wash all of them off with the water outside.

That really sucks, and is probably where I'm headed minus the crazy boyfriend. I guess if everyone of-age in your family were to find work and budget the hell out of your net income, you might be able to find a small place to start over.