Sweet release
Posted: Sun Sep 03, 2017 12:43 pm
This is years of pent up anger, I need to let this out before it gets worse. If you think it doesn't promote discussion or breaks some other rule feel free to lock the topic.
For as long as I can remember I have been constantly ignored and generally treated like crap. My thoughts are selfish, when I want something I'm being ignorant. I worked 5 months baby sitting, made 300 dollars but I can't have that money for god knows why. I was scammed. Around 2 years ago my mother's friend needed a place to stay. Guess who lost their room? It wasn't even a big deal to me honestly, what really ticked me off was when I found out that bitch was talking about me behind my back, after all I had done for her. When I tried talking to my parents about it, they fucking ignored me. She's gone now, but I haven't forgotten. The mascara on the edge of the bed is a depressing reminder. I can't express my political views because they're "controversial". I'm against western feminism and I support trump and I dislike Obama. Nobody wants to listen to what I have to say, what I say is 100% wrong. I'm fucking sick of it, I listen to other people. I love debating, but I don't like arguing. One time I got on r/feminism and said I think that they should keep the film industry and politics separate. I wanted to debate with them, I wanted to here their views and opinions. They banned me. I wasn't trolling, I wasn't speaking out against feminism even. I just asked them to keep politics and movies separate. It especially makes my blood boil when I hear how oppressed western women are. You want fucking oppressed? Go look at the middle east, just fucking look at them. They are treated like dogs. Oh, but the Quran is so pro women. I kid you not a fucking feminist tried to explain to me that the Quran isn't sexist, but the Bible is. I don't even have a religion, I think each and every one of them is horse shit. Religions are created to explain things we don't understand which makes them bound to be eventually disproved. Oh but don't get me wrong there is a god, and he hates me. I've got the shittiest luck, every day I swear he looks down at me and says "fuck you". My strange political and religious views put me at odds with everyone I meet, I've never had a girl interested in me. Except for this one chick, she kept following me around for some reason. It was weird and when I told her to back off she got really depressed, JUST LIKE ME. Oh, but according to my dearest mother I was in the wrong for turning her down. It would never have worked, and I knew that. Plus I was like 9 and firmly against getting a girlfriend while in school. I still kinda am, but I've relaxed a bit. At this point I am so fucking ready to die. I've made a pact with myself that as soon as death comes for me, I'm not going to try and prevent it. The only reason that I'm not committing suicide is because I don't want to be reborn or end up in purgatory. I dread the fact that I might have another 50+ years on this shitty planet. I just want it to end.
For as long as I can remember I have been constantly ignored and generally treated like crap. My thoughts are selfish, when I want something I'm being ignorant. I worked 5 months baby sitting, made 300 dollars but I can't have that money for god knows why. I was scammed. Around 2 years ago my mother's friend needed a place to stay. Guess who lost their room? It wasn't even a big deal to me honestly, what really ticked me off was when I found out that bitch was talking about me behind my back, after all I had done for her. When I tried talking to my parents about it, they fucking ignored me. She's gone now, but I haven't forgotten. The mascara on the edge of the bed is a depressing reminder. I can't express my political views because they're "controversial". I'm against western feminism and I support trump and I dislike Obama. Nobody wants to listen to what I have to say, what I say is 100% wrong. I'm fucking sick of it, I listen to other people. I love debating, but I don't like arguing. One time I got on r/feminism and said I think that they should keep the film industry and politics separate. I wanted to debate with them, I wanted to here their views and opinions. They banned me. I wasn't trolling, I wasn't speaking out against feminism even. I just asked them to keep politics and movies separate. It especially makes my blood boil when I hear how oppressed western women are. You want fucking oppressed? Go look at the middle east, just fucking look at them. They are treated like dogs. Oh, but the Quran is so pro women. I kid you not a fucking feminist tried to explain to me that the Quran isn't sexist, but the Bible is. I don't even have a religion, I think each and every one of them is horse shit. Religions are created to explain things we don't understand which makes them bound to be eventually disproved. Oh but don't get me wrong there is a god, and he hates me. I've got the shittiest luck, every day I swear he looks down at me and says "fuck you". My strange political and religious views put me at odds with everyone I meet, I've never had a girl interested in me. Except for this one chick, she kept following me around for some reason. It was weird and when I told her to back off she got really depressed, JUST LIKE ME. Oh, but according to my dearest mother I was in the wrong for turning her down. It would never have worked, and I knew that. Plus I was like 9 and firmly against getting a girlfriend while in school. I still kinda am, but I've relaxed a bit. At this point I am so fucking ready to die. I've made a pact with myself that as soon as death comes for me, I'm not going to try and prevent it. The only reason that I'm not committing suicide is because I don't want to be reborn or end up in purgatory. I dread the fact that I might have another 50+ years on this shitty planet. I just want it to end.